The last week has been rough. It marked the end of my regular insurance since I left my job, and unfortunately, has also seen me in the hospital 3 times. Yep. 3 times in one week. The first two times, they couldn’t seem to kick me out fast enough. This time seems to linger on, for some reason.
I am so utterly tired of not knowing why I feel so crummy. I have a pretty good life. I have a sweet fiancé who loves me with everything he has. I am following my dreams and aspiring to live a happier life. But for some reason, this illness keeps coming back about once a month. It is really quite frustrating.
The worst part is that most of the time, I feel perfectly fine. Then, I don’t. And the world stops spinning. At least for me. And for my sweetheart. I feel so bad for him, having to watch me suffer all the time. Even the dog is affected! Poor Lucy refuses to eat when I am not home. She also sits on the back of the couch with her nose stuck out the window waiting for Mommy to come home. Poor sweet Lucy.
And now, because I couldn’t stay healthy, I am going to have to pay for at least one month of COBRA insurance, Please, someone stick a sharp stick in my eye. I have so many better things to spend money on. Like rent… a wedding,,, food… you get the picture.
So that is where I have been hiding for the past week. I am hoping to get out of the hospital (again) today and to be on the mend. Something has got to change. My nutrition, exercise, hell, I have even started doing yoga (which I HATE). Something needs to be different. Starting today, I am on a road to wellness. There may be bumps along the way, but I am in it for the long haul. Please continue to follow along with my journey, and perhaps embark on one of your own. <3